taro

2007-08-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

as i venture forth into an unknown land.with a friend depicting an image that of a foe.apprehensive.guardian angels toyed with my feelings.trust.losing a grip on myself?
am i doing justice to myself.
doing meaningless things.it pleasures everyone else but myself.
losing the drive.
devils taking the mickey out of me.beliefs and lies entwined.unreasonable.ridiculous!!!
stagnant is an option.perhaps the best one.the two paths that lie ahead.both.
if only...
weary.psychologically.never too late.if only...
why are you secrective.sharing is not in your dictionary?after what we went thru.
late night mugs.grass over there looks burnt.sheeps.
if only...
old and ageing.elderly.if only......................
no matter how hard old tom works.he never gets appreciated.shortcomings magnifield.
misunderstandings.mistrust.
if only...

2007-08-07T20:27:00.000+08:00

english 87...........ownage

chinese 61.....................omfg.......

so boring nowadays...lessons are as good as nothing...

going to sch becomes a necessity instead of joy.

im asked to study everyday...no going out...no using of comp...ZzZZzzzzzz~

2007-07-05T20:38:00.000+08:00

omg. ive just realised my workload realistically after nationals.
my table is in a frenzy now

went to the cdiv cricket finals and the match was like 5 hours in total. i spent my time staring at a game which i saw no sense, in particular for the 3 sticks which looked amusing but redundant.

2007-07-04T16:35:00.000+08:00

im terribly upset and pissed

i didnt shoot well enough

555.

nic 568 (individual bronze) and david 532 WTF

he actually shot a ZERO.

if me and tat ip fag shot our mock scores we would have owned. and got gold

but we didnt. and instead finished fourth.

slept at 3am the night before.

or should i say.

hours before.

went there. realised tat i wasnt allowed to use another thin glove inside my main glove.

from den on. i knew. GG.

beat sps and kcp by ONE POINT.

well at least we din really came home empty-handed unlike our bdiv folks.

we'll be getting a medal, wat colour? i dont know.

hwa chong actually won gold. RI was third.

this is the worst shooting campaign ever for acs. worst result for bdiv.

well gd luck to all whos left.

-jasonlau. who got 577. hope he gets some individual medal.
-constance? i duno ur standard but all the best.

2007-06-29T22:58:00.000+08:00

nationals have been going on badly for acs. that is all i will say.

4/7. god bless all of us.

Uh, yeah you can do it

I didn't give a damn what you say to me

I don't really care what you think of me

Cause either way you're gonna think what you believe

There's nothing you could say that would hurt me

I'm better off without you anyway

I thought it would be hard but I'm OK

I don't need you if you're gonna be that way

Because with me, it's all or nothing

I'm sick of this shit, don't deny

You're a waste of time

I'm sick of this shit, don't ask why

I hate you now

So go away from me

You're gone, so long

I can do better, I can do better

Hey, hey you

I found myself again

That's why you're goneI can do better, I can do better

You're so full of it

I can't stand the way you act

I just can't comprehend

I don't think that you can handle it

I'm way over, over it

I will drink as much lemoncello as I can

And I'll do again and again

I don't really care what you have to say

Cause you know, you know you're nothing

I'm sick of your shit, don't deny

You're a waste of time

I'm sick of your shit, don't ask why

2007-06-23T21:22:00.000+08:00

566 today in the mock.

Nic 555

David 557

I started of quite well with 93 and 98. den. 96 94 91 94

And my 5th series was 91. I'm wondering how on earth did I get three 8s and one 7 in that series, and the rest was 10. zzzzzzz this must NOT happen in nats. triggering also suxed............when can i stop shooting so hard............................

4 points off my 570 target with ten 9.9s.

Hope to do well in nats. Hope we can get more training hours. Hope to reach the coveted 570. Hope we can get team gold. although it will be tough.

So far so good. Only improvements.

As for the Bdiv. Chris suspects that he contracted dengue fever. Hope he recovers soon or else they are screwed.

Harold got 451.............................................

shit. schools starting. i still have tons of homework left undone.days of rushing thru assigments will be back. meanwhile im just going to slack off the 1st 2wks of sch.RI is so cohesive. everytime they train together, 4ppl, including reserve.

jason got 583. I was feeling dam sad as i saw his cards moving back and forth (he was shooting behind me).

1010101010101010101010101010.

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2007-06-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

Its almost 12 now and im updating......for the sake of boredom

Since my last post, I've been training everyday and coming back to h00t computer.

Went for a short trip to Shanghai (3-4days)
Came back to realise my comp is full of dust and miles behind RI. Just completed some CPR course today. TOTAL WASTE OF TIME IMO. The people there wasted time like it was free!!!! Food provided was SHIT. But at least I learnt some stuff.

I seriously dont understand why people can really be so ON in UYO.
REFER TO THIS --> http://www.lok93keretapi.blogspot.com/

TO LEAD WITH PRIDE, EXCEL WITH DISCIPLINE AND OVERCOME WITH HONOUR

YA THATS THE SPIRIT!!! MOTTO FOR LIFE!!!

Done nothing much useful in the holidays except going for trainings. I haven't started on my huge pile of homework.

I want my 570 soon!

hmph

2007-05-20T20:22:00.000+08:00

This week started off badly.

I got my tablet confiscated while playing Football Manager 07 in class.

I broke a gay block of glass while learning refraction and had to pay $10.

Had results on friday................

English - 54

HCL - 73

Literature - 76

Art - 80

Geography -88

History - 100

Maths - 70

Physics - 56

L.Sci - 74

Average - 74.5

Class Position 6th

Well the English and Chinese papers came back and they were a shocker.

I thought I could get very high for HCL and at least 70+ for English.

Turned out that I didn't read the instuctions properly and included irrevelant points in my Summary. Got myself penalised lots of marks.

The rest turned out okay.

Anyway I GOT MYSELF A NEW COMPUTER!

I love my parents! <3

Seriously this is so much faster than my old cpu.

Imagine

From Pentium 4 to Conroe E6600

From 256Ram to 4gbRam

From Nvidia 5 Series to 8 Series

From a dx8 gfx to dx10

YAY

2007-05-15T22:47:00.001+08:00

Exams are all over!

School is all about being Mourinho-wannabes.

The Special One!

2007-05-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

The real exams starts tomorrow.
Literature and Life Science.
The past 4 papers have been quite good.

History was perfect.

For the rest, Geog, English, and HCL.

I didn't read the instructions/sentences and I self-pwned
Got myself deducted 1 or 2 marks.

But hopefully they will turn out well, 80s or 90s.

Spent the whole afternoon getting my bio right. Must thank AricGay.
At least I understand the content already.

Still got maths on friday. Which I do well normally but screw up in exams.
And physics with the retarted ions I have to gay with.

I just hope I can get 70plus in Lit.
And don't screw up the rest.
Or my IB is gone.

Man Utd's the English Champions.
But I dont feel a thing.
They are just too pro.

My Blogger is as dumb as Lennie Small. I cant do a single shit to my fonts or words.

To the hell with rabbits.

yawnz.

2007-05-01T01:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LABOUR DAY!

Its 1am now.

I wonder why I am staying up late.

I woke up with a bang this morning.

I just realised how little time I have left to the Mid Years.

1 week.

I haven't really started on revision yet.

I really need to do well for this term, especially with the IB application coming up.

I must take this seriously, unlike my previous terms.

I decided to stop my life for 2 weeks. HIATUS

No-life!!

I realised I wasted about 7 weeks of school already.

I only paid attention in class and did homework, but nothing else.

I realised I went for trainings so often that it tire me out by the time I reach home.

Today tangjie had a HCL tingxie and I didnt even noe there was one.

I didnt even start on my HCL at all and duno what the stories were about.

I only know about 50%.

This is catastrophic.

sad day

2007-04-29T21:03:00.000+08:00

I just want to forget this day.

I really pity derek.

He got -20 from the jury.

They thought he cut his shot from a 9.9 to a 10.

In the end he got only 554 which was dam noob by his standards.

Well I can just say for him its a sad case.

I shot 535.

I felt dam nervous.

I just dono why.

I suffered from a bout of inappetite and after eating a small breakfast I felt like vomitting.

I almost did when I went into safra.

First thing I noticed was that Harold wasn't there. Zzzzzz

I tried to calm down by sleeping in one corner.

I could feel my head bouncing off the wall. My heart was so pumped up.

Finally I drew my gun and felt shaky when I put it down.

Well when it was started I suddenly felt ok for a moment.

My 1st 5 shots were all 10.

Den I thought," waaa got momentum already."

BANG

8...............

Omg.

Well it concluded that I shot 93 for that first series.

Which wasn't too bad.

My next was 90.

I was starting to get angry.

I really need to learn to control my emotions.

I started to trigger so hard.

I felt dam steady but my trigger screw everything up.

I lost about 20 points because of that.

Could have gotten 550+

I was frustrated after the competition and exhausted.

I guess I concentrated too much.

But thinking back, I was a little happy.

Positives that can be taken from this shoot :

I started and ended with 10

I felt less nervous den the NTU Invitational

I think after the next monthly I will not feel any nervousness anymore

I just received news that david only got 520.

This is seriously screwed up.

I hope things turn out well after the mid year exam.

With nick about 560, around the same as the best ri guy, we have a genuine chance.

I hope jyeow can open the range more often den 4 times a week.

Its just not enough.

She has to understand we have to make up for lost ground.

I hope to find some time to talk to her.

I bet david is even more fired up den me.

We could have been in a better position now if not if we stopped for 6 months in sec1.

I guess this is not the time to complain now.

We just have to work harder to make up for lost ground.

We are just about 2 months behind them now

I am going to concentrate on mid years.

Theres only like 1 week left.

I really want to get into IB.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2007-04-26T23:49:00.000+08:00

The detailing is out!

Lane 25.

Well its 4 lanes away from derek. great.

He wont be able to tell me to dry-fire anymore!

Im shooting beside an NJC guy! (ok this is irrevelant)

But the timing sux -> 2 to 4

Means that I will miss my Chinese tuition :(

I think I should revise my target.

540 seems abit low now =x

I will set it to 550

My only obstacle is nervousness

Which I am very prone to

If not I can easily 560

Hopefully I wont be jittery on that day

But im already feeling nervous!

Worse den the NTU Invitational.

Well tmr Junyong, Horse and Milton will be coming to my house to do EP project.

And the orangutan may be staying overnight!

Good luck to :

David

Derek Wong Ka Shing

Harold (I hope he meets his target of 500 or else he will be dead)

the fray

2007-04-22T13:29:00.000+08:00

How To Save A Life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

frankie's place

2007-04-21T23:18:00.001+08:00

I have thus far removed andrew from my blog.

And uploaded some pictures of dramatic reading.

To be fair I look pretty dumb on stage.

Blame the photographer! Aric Lee!

I realised my forehead is humongous. With a hairline so tall but refusing to budge.

I wonder why I haven't accomplished anything useful in the field of academics.

I should stop sleeping in afternoons and staying up late at night.

Am I turning nocturnal?

Without an objective, there will be no direction; without direction, there will be no action.

I have an objective and direction. I know what I want.

But theres a clear lack of action from me.

Sign of laziness? Probably not.

I have been doing a lot of "outside" classroom activities. Positive ones, to clear the air of doubt.

Lee Hsien Loong should be proud of me. Perhaps I should join NJC.

I wanna get into IB so desperately.

Going to ask Mr. Venthan for a letter about my excellence during last year's ISO.

Or not? All the work we've done were completed in 3 weeks. The rest of the time spent playing.

Yet we were awarded a rare A*. And the distinguised leader standing ever so tall with a smug.

Approaching Mrs. Bethany Khng for a cert or recommendation letter would prove to be pragmatic.

And come in handy to include in my sexy CV.

I hope the future would be scintillating.

I long for motivation to carry out the "action" I lack in academics.

Thus far, my attitude towards the classwork has been atrocious.

And mid years are coming in 2 weeks.

My Dad is coming back this friday! I am over the moon!

And he is going to give me a lesson on his objective direction theory.

I have HCL exam tmr.

Monthly is on 29 April.

Its a hell of a fortnight coming up.

Thank all gods, taoist or not, for blessing me and making it thru the last 2 weeks.

The future looks bleak. For the moment.

I think I can change.

I could.

I will.

I have to.

I must.

Reverse psycology. Heart and soul of the human mind. Heaven and Earth.

Professor Trelawny and her gay ball.

Frankie's place is a Singaporean restaurant in Shanghai.

I visit them whenever I get tired of the food there.

Reading between the lines.

It means I seldom drop by.......

endless

2007-04-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

The Hammy's ever-so-interesting life

Hamtaro has just won 2nd in dramatic reading.
Hamtaro is disappointed that he did not win 1st place.
Hamtaro is desperate to improve his pathetic English.
Hamtaro is trying to salvage his once perfect Chinese
Hamtaro has eyebags dropping but has the resilience to avoid the tempting calls of his hamster bed.
Hamtaro is wondering why he is so resilient.
Hamtaro has to wake up at 6 tomorrow for the c'div meeting at 7.
Hamtaro has to get to chapel early to get a good seat for a undisturbed slumber amid the benediction.
Hamtaro has training tomorrow afternoon.
Hamtaro has to return early back into his cage to read up on History Chapters 3 and 4.
Hamtaro has to ponder on "complicated and long sums" if he has to finish the 50 questions by next sunday.
Hamtaro has training the next day.
Hamtaro is mad.

weekend

2007-04-08T11:44:00.000+08:00

omg!! the weekend passes by like a bullet train!!

on friday i was feeling very bored and sian..and i decided to create a blog.. well that influenced xunwei and huang to making one and i helped them out. it all ended around 9 at nite and that was when i really started on my hw! i did some and felt really tired out already.

i woke up at 8am on sat cos i had to go for training in safra yishun. reached there at about 915 and saw david and daniel guarding the door like some police dogs..lol.. when the uncle finally opened the range they ran to the counter like some kids...wtf -.- And then the uncle cursed," nabei cheebye knn!!" it was so funny!! i just strolled there and cooly cut the queue stand beside david. we all got free denker lanes!

during training i screwed up. when can i ever stop shooting 8s!! its like out of 10 shots im shooting 4 8s and rest 9 and 10. but to reach my target for this month i need all 9s. worse still i shot two 7s =.= david is doing pretty well with all 9s and 10s but he got a 6 lol. i guess i need to train harder.

i went to jonathan's house at nite with ianming to practice for our dramatic reading. i guess we have a good chance of winning with only david ong and stage fright as our sole obstacles. we did to about 11 and would have continued if not i had a stomachache =x

woke up today to livescore.com only to find man utd lost 2-1 to portsmouth!! wtf......... and chelsea once again won with only 1-0... when will they stop getting undeserved victories? like the one against watford.... 90" kalou goal...1-0.....only positive thing is that arsenal lost to hammers their 1st defeat at emirates.. A sign of great things to come XD

had my tution in the morning and i still have to go for another chinese one later at 3pm..zzz
its going to be boring as we will have ying yong wen exam...for the next 3 weeks we will have compo and paper2!!!

im glad school's starting tmr once again! i miss school man. its soo fun! i dont like weekends. its the time when i have to rush out my homework + study and tution.
i hope jyeow can postpone my CIP to next term such that i can go for training..harold mums fetching! yay

there're alot of things coming up...

next tuesday and wed i have uyo training for the ncdcc day which i intend to pon = need reason
on thursday is ncdcc day which i intend not to march
friday is the dramatic reading finals
next sat 21 april i have to go to njc open house with my mom -.-

just finished my chinese letter..still have the literature chapter2 report to do and the planner my tution teacher gave me..

i hope things turn out well....

4th blog on the block ;

2007-04-06T18:34:00.000+08:00

hello everybody! this is my fourth blog already and i made it because i was feeling bored but anyways
thanks to xunwei for his support! now i still have to fine-tune the little details here and there and im done! :D

well its good friday today, and i must say christianty is good! cos theres no uyo!!!!!